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Winona Ryder’s Motivations For Making Girl, Interrupted

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When Winona Ryder was 20, she checked herself into a psychiatric ward for a few days. The insomnia and anxiety attacks she had been suffering on and off for years had become paralyzing. At the tail end of a long, difficult parting with Johnny Depp, her first serious boyfriend, she said she “hit bottom.” A week after entering the hospital, she signed herself out, feeling she had not been helped.

Ryder recalled, “The worst part of it was not being able to describe the overwhelming horror of the anxiety attacks – even to my own family, to the people closest to me… My breathing would get labored, everything would start speeding up, and I’d get very scared. The closest I ever came to describing it was that feeling when you almost get in a car wreck and you swerve, and for a second there are needles in your head and needles in your body. It’s that moment, but stretched out.”

Winona talks more about her emotional crash after the jump.

Ryder said that when she checked herself into the hospital, “I was
so tired, I just wanted to sleep. They didn’t help me at all… What I
learned was that, no matter how rich you are and how much you pay some
hospital or doctor, they can’t fix you. They can’t give you a pill or a
secret answer to anything that’s going to make you all better.”

“Successful actors aren’t really allowed to complain, which I
understand,” confessed Ryder. “And I understand that when actors
complain, it sounds a little nauseating. We’re very lucky. We’re
sickeningly well-paid and we have these very charmed lives. But along
with that, there is a lot of kind of ugly stuff that goes with it that
the public doesn’t see… There’s a lot of soul-selling stuff that goes
with it. And that’s the kind of stuff that breaks us down.”

Ryder came to the conclusion that “you have to figure it out for
yourself. Suddenly everything became very real, and I realized it was
okay to not have the answers. I just had to get through it on my own.
And that life was confusing, the world was a weird place full of a lot
of things that I’ll never understand, but that I’m not supposed to
understand… Life is just weird, and messy. And I just have to get
through it, and do my best. Either choose to move on, or stay
miserable. And I chose to move on.”

When Winona Ryder was 21, she was given Susanna Kaysen’s memoir
Girl, Interrupted in galley form by her father Michael Horowitz, a
rare-book dealer. Ryder immediately identified with the author’s
experience. “I was just coming out of my very serious depression, and I
didn’t know what to label it, just as Susanna doesn’t know what to
label hers,” Ryder revealed.

"I was blown away by it, but also saddened a bit that it hadn’t been
published when I was in my late teens,” said Ryder. “I could have used
Susanna’s insights back then to get through my own struggles at 17 and
18 years old. To me the book is a timeless story about timeless
characters and timeless feelings. It is an incredibly honest,
courageous, sensitive and, most amazingly, wickedly funny account of
what was a terribly painful time in her life."

Winona Ryder decided to make Girl, Interrupted into a movie because
she believed the author’s insights could really help certain young
people. "I hope the teenagers who feel alone out there will see this
movie and say, ‘Thank God.’ Because movies like this aren’t really
offered, and I would like to offer it. If I had seen this movie at 19,
I would have taken a lot of comfort in it… Life is just weird. Life is
a mess. This world is a mess, and anyone who understands this world I
would worry about… We’re normal to feel crazy, in a way."

Sources:
Jennet Conant, “Holiday Films: Mining Her Memories To Play a Troubled Soul,” New York Times, 11/14/99
Jessica Holt, “Ryder Discusses Personal Meaning of Girl, Interrupted,” UCLA Daily Bruin, 1/10/00
“Real-Life Experience Helped Ryder,” United Press International, 12/27/99
Girl Interrupted Production Information, Columbia Pictures Press Release

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